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i want to be free

Why am I so confined in this four walled house? The ones watching over me say I stay in too much, but when a chance comes for me to get out, they say “no! we have plans and you have to stay to watch the pet and household!” everything I do is meaningless. Because of them, I missed my friend’s birthday. I want to get out of here and be free!

why is this world filled with people whining, complaining, and gripping over things that will never happen their way? why is this world filled with sex-crazed mindless zombies that thing a girl is just a toy to their pleasure then throw them away when they’re tired of them like a child having a toy? why is this world filled with ones that think their more intelligent than others by using just big words to make them look like a douche? and why is this world filled with sick and demented souls that think it’s okay to do whatever they want or however they want to an innocent soul whenever they want?

this is why i hate being a human being or just being apart of this world and era

So for now I think I’m going to be posting from my iPhone. But just for now. My computer is out of commission and needing to get it fixed (woo…) anyways, I’ll be posting more pics and other things I haven’t post much on here from now on, so keep a look out!

-miranda

You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep at night because reality is finally better than your dreams…
— I don’t know why lately, but I’ve been more and more creativly inspired. It’s a strange feeling. I’ve been listening to music more, focusing on the music and the lyrics more than usual. I’ve been wanting the paint things that I see, take pictures and view them with a new way. I would be somewhat afraid of this feeling, but oddly enough, I’m not. I really like it. Maybe because since I’m about to get out of school, life is telling me what I should do in life: To do art. Any kind really. Painting. Photography. Hell, to me and most others, music can be art! Is it a sign that I’m suddenly becoming like this?
Eat, Sleep, and Kill Zombies
— A personal quote for anyone playing Left 4 Dead

I know it’s old news, but I can’t help but to hear about her!

Who?

Jessica Leonhard. But everyone online now knows her as either kerligirl13 or JessiSlaughter

Like I said, I know it’s old news, but I can’t help to hear more and more about her! It makes me laugh and at the same time see that society is going down hill with kids. She says she can ‘handle whatever fame comes at me’ and that hater’s comments ‘don’t phase me’. From that video with her parents involved, that seemed to phase her A LOT if dear old mommy and daddy was yelling at everyone. And they say it’s our faults? Have they seen her videos? I was reading an interview thing that someone did with the mother (which I don’t really think it’s real, but it was an interesting read), and she just wanted to ‘leave this whole thing alone’. If your child was sent threats and rude comment after he/she was making threats such as ‘I’ll pop a glock in your mouth and make a brain slushie’, and you had the proof online, would you ‘leave it alone’ or see if it’s true? That’s some parenting.

And the parents make me laugh the most out of this whole thing! Don’t they watch what she does? (Odvious question: they aren’t) When I got a computer, my parents would once a week check my history, seeing where I’ve been. If I was in some chat room, porn site, or just somewhere I shouldn’t be, they would ground me for a few weeks to a few months. But they parents left her alone to do whatever she wished. Not the best idea. And with a web cam at that. They could go into some webcam chat room, and a pedo could talk to them, getting info out of them. Any parents reading this: KEEP YOUR KIDS AWAY FROM COMPUTERS AND WEB CAMS! Get them out of the house and let them play outside! Don’t have them cooped inside the house, on the computer! Let them do that when they’re in their teens. When they’re 11, they should be playing outside in the sun shine with their friends.

Right now, I’m still watching that video of her’s crying, and she says that it’s OUR faults? She’s the one that setted herself up for this. Making those comments, making herself appear she’s ‘all that and perfect’ when she really isn’t at all, and just making herself seem like a little whore. (Excuse my language) If she ever reads this, here’s some word of advice: Ignore everyone! There will be haters, especially with your attitude, but you just need to ignore them. It’s not that hard. (But for you, it’s not the easiest thing ever)

All I have to say is yu dun goof’d

discovered something new

lately, i have been going to this place called chat-avenue. i found out about it a few years ago by one of my friends, and i thought it was pretty fun. but after a while i stopped for reasons unknown. so i decided to get back on for old times sake

a new thing was placed on there: web cam chat. something i usually see nowadays. so i tried it out. it was okay at first, but then it got worse. pervs were asking me to flash them, touch myself, and even watch them touch themselves. i wanted to come on for a chat, not to expose my body to people like that. it kepy happening everytime i got on web cam.

last night, i had it with them: i finally spoke into the mic, and told them to stop once and for all! they responded by saying “okay”, but then i went on, saying why they shouldn’t do it, why i don’t even want to do it, why i don’t want to see it, and why the real reason i was on there. i suddnely started getting messages from people i’ve never talked to before, saying i was really funny! i never really thought of myself as funny at all, and even if i was, i wasn’t even trying. so, i kept going. people would ask me questions about me: some sexual, but most were non-sexual. i would respond in a funny and crazy way, and they would love it. so i’ve discovered that i should speak up more ofen when i’m on cam, because others that don’t want to see my body will understand and see why it’s wrong. i really like it :)

So, this weekend I get to go to Oklahoma to see John again! <3 I’m so excited! It’s the best thing that’s happen all this week! D: Summer school, the teacher losing my papers then saying I never turned them in, my mom being a bit more mad than usual, and my phone shitting out on me. Seeing John will make it a hell of a lot better! Sadly, I won’t be seeing my family over the 4th of July break D: I want to, but this is possibly John’s last weekend pass in the army! >__< And I love seeing him! I think I should call everyone on 4th of July and tell them I’m sorry D:

updates so far

it’s june 15th, and i’m at the library next to my high school. pretty boring, like it always has been every time i come here. life is still the same. going to summer school to atleast get out and go out on my own without any troubles. sadly, after i get out, i have to get a job, learn to drive, and get a car. sadly, yes, i’m 19 and don’t even know how to drive. i blame my sister when i was 12 ‘til now. thankfully i found some cars i might get. just one though. don’t really see the point of having more than one if it’s just for you and it’s still in good condition. all i really want to do once i get out is travel and see the world. or at least the rest of the US. since i’m with an army man, i might be traveling the world anyways. we’re thinking of going to germany when we get the chance. i would love to go to japan, but that can wait.

but for now, it’s pretty boring in the world of miranda. so, this is possible where i stop for now. update to you people later

-miranda

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